New blogger

I think this site is going to be abandoned from now on...

Ming has created a new blogger site for Caleb Miki.

So please go to the following site to see what's up with our lives~

http://mikicaleb.blogspot.com/

既期待又怕受傷害

I am still here~ No signs of Caleb yet.

Went to my technically "last" midwife appointment yesterday, and she did som kinda maneuver to me and it hurt like hell.  That let me realize i will definitely need epidural.

今天Caleb 37 周了！！！

從知道懷孕的驚嚇，到懷孕時的緊張，到現在讓我感覺他是一個真的bebe了，真是個奇妙又珍貴的經驗。  我其實很想趕快遇到他，也是因為我有點累了，可是我又希望他不要來的太早來，因為我想在放假之前修息一下， 也想他再長大一點。

Just one more week... one more week... mikiyaya加油。

Less than a month to go!!!

Thank you to the lady who gave up her seat to me on the GO train today....

There was this other woman who was pregnant and she went around asking if people would give up their seats for her.  I would never have the guts to do that.  That's why I am so grateful for the lady who saw me standing and offered me her seat.  I wasn't even in a spot that she could easily saw me!  Thank you and God bless you.  :)

Last night K started kicking me at 3:30am.  I didn't want to get up, even though I knew he was hungry.  At 4am, he started getting hiccups!  That made me felt guilty so I went and got myself a bowel of cereal.  Ahy... This boy is going to be trouble.  Whenever he/I feel hungry he would be kicking like crazy, and if i don't eat soon enough, he would get the hiccups.  Lack of sleep is merely a description of how i feel right now.  I am just exhausted~~~  Good thing my work replacement started her orientation today so she was able to do some of the stuff for me.  Otherwise i don't think i would have made it back home today.  Deciding to leave 2 weeks before my due date was stupid and overambitious.  Now i'm regretting it.  As long as K stays put (upside down too), and my legs don't give up on me, i guess i'll survive.

7:30pm 回到家還要煮飯給自己吃真累...

I think we are almost ready

for Caleb's arrival.  One night ming just put together the bassinet and things started to feel real, like "yeah, there is really a baby coming!"  I am starting to feel a little nervous, kinda like before an exam...  So we did K's laundry today, folded them and prepared what to bring to the hospital.  I think we have way more than enough clothes for him.  It looks a lot, but half of it is flannels and wash clothes, half was gift from other people and baby shower this past week, and the rest I bought.  So don't say I bought too much oh....

Our glider has arrived.  There's a cushion that comes with it.  It's a nice looking glider (well, i think so), but not the "most" comfortable one.... It's a sacrifice between look and comfort. :P

thank you my friends~

so after some lengthy discussions with ming and advices from friends, we finally got the bassinet/playpan.  thanks to jamie/cindy/egg for their gift (well, i basically went and exchanged for this one).  

It's a stubborn baby (or a stubborn uterus)

Caleb is still breech... This is making me so frustrated!!!!

I tried the exercises from the information brochure that my midwife gave me, but it just seems like every time i get into those positions for the baby to turn, he just freeze.  I have a feeling that he doesn't like it when i do them, because before and after the exercise, he would be moving crazy, but during it, he just refuses to move.  

Perhaps it's the shape of my uterus? Or he's already too big to be turning... Ming and i were saying that he must not be very flexible, and we have come to the conclusion that he got that from me.  I can't even touch my toes!

But listen people, it is not my fault that this baby wants to be breech.  Even if it's because of the shape of my uterus, it is still not my fault!

So what if i'll have a c-section, don't make it sound like such a terrible thing coz tons of women give birth by C.

Another pregnancy thought

When I was taking a shower today, i noticed something funny about being pregnant.

I usually turn towards the shower head while shampooing my hair, so the hair doesn't get all wet from the water.  But today when i was doing that, the water coming down from the shower head was sprayed directly onto my big belly and indirectly sprayed onto my face... My eyes were closed and at first i was thinking "what the heck, where is the water coming from?" Then i realized it. So i had to turn my back from the water.  Hahaha... i thought that was funny.

I think the number one thing that most pregnant women worry about is the health of their baby.  I have decided that no matter what health condition my baby will have, i will love him nevertheless.  I've seen too many parents with sick babies and they all love their kids.  But of course i still pray to God that Caleb will be healthy and normal.

I guess i am getting a 2nd cold in a row.  This sickness never went away!!!  That's why i've been so tired lately...

What a money spending year~

This year we've spent money on so many things: new house, new baby, old house, etc.  Last night water pipes bursted in our master bedroom and leaked underneath into the dinning room and basement.  Ming and I took the day off and called up a plumber.  Ming insisted on calling a "white" company even though I think a Chinese plumber would charge less.  Whatever, it's his decision.  After almost $500, our pipes are fixed.  Now we have to find a general contractor to nicely insulate and patch up the wall so this doesn't happen again.  Who knows how much that's gonna cost.  

After all this, we went to Costco (bad idea) and saw the brand of juicer that we've always wanted happened to be touring there.  We came out $700 shorter (that includes $100 membership fee which expired the end of last year).  Ouch... we didn't go to work and we spent over $1200!  Life's tough.

But just like what Stephanie said, if things could be fixed by money, it's all good.

Right now I just wish that K would turn his head up-side-down!!!  That's something money can't buy...

Happy 2010~

Another new year... 

Wishing everyone good luck and happiness in year 2010.

Nothing is more important than health and happiness, money is only a "by-passer."  That's why I bought myself with a new purse.  :D

end of the year

It's boxing day but Ming & I are staying home today.  Well, he went out this morning and came home with a GPS.  I stayed home mostly because I am sick, plus I don't feel like going to the malls to deal with the crowd.  After all, there is really nothing that i want to buy... unless LV or Gucci go on sale, then I may consider it. 

This cold that I have is really something, keeping me home and not spending money?! What a powerful bug.

maybe this is the way for ming to lose some weight

So ming and i had a bet: he said he would finish painting the "baby room" within 5 days after he goes on x'mas vacation or he will never have a sip of beer ever again.  After deducting days that we needed to do errands, such as decor meeting, lunch/dinner with friends, we've come up with the date December 26th.  Good luck ming~

pregnancy thoughts

My prego belly looks very different from all the prego women that i've seen.  I feel like i am carrying a 輪胎 around my waist, but i think that's coz K (short for Caleb) is lying side ways.  i think he's gonna be tall, coz my "tire" is really wide.

When i found out that i was pregnant, i told myself that i was only going to gain 22lbs.  Well, i'm there already, damn it.  Don't even know how that happened.

We bought our car seat today (it was on sale); also bought some silicone baby bottles that are made in Taiwan, cool eh?!  Well, they were on sale and they were pretty. :P

Thank you, to the guy lining up behind me

I did something sort of embarrassing tonight....

I remember two years ago, on our Jack+Ming wedding bus tour to Kingston, we stopped at Wendy's for lunch.  Nica had ordered potatoes with chives and sour cream while everyone got fries.  That was the first time that i knew that Wendy's had such thing.  Last night, I had to get my own dinner and i didn't want to drive far or wait a long time for it, and instead of going to MacDonald, which we always go, i decided to go to Wendy's.  It's not that far from our home anyways.  So I thought about the potatoes, and I ordered it.  I absolutely loved it... I peeled off every single part of that potatoes to get the last bit of it.

Tonight, i needed to get dinner again for myself, so i decided to go back again.  I ordered the exact same thing, delux cheeseburger and the potatoes with chives and sour cream.  But then after the cashier took my money, gave me my burger, she told me "we don't have potatoes anymore."  I almost wanted to kill her.... I told her, "I came here for the potatoes!!!" She smiled and said nothing.  I said "if you had told me that you didn't have it, i would have just left!"  Then the manager came, i told her what happened, so she gave me a rain cheque for the potatoes.  I told her "i'm sorry, but i'm pregnant" and she said she understands.

The father ordering behind me told me "it was February, my wife was pregnant and she wanted watermelon.  We drove around town looking for watermelon, found it and bought it even though it was $15.  So i understand where you're coming from, and i sympathize you."

THANK YOU SIR!!! Thank you for not making me feel bad for holding up the line and asking for a potato.  Thank you.  You're a good man for driving around town paying $15 for watermelon for your pregnant wife.  There is still good people in this world.

Can this baby

in my tummy smell anything right now?

I had bought something to eat for dinner this afternoon, I thought I wasn't hungry, until I started driving away and smelled the food~~

Then the baby started kicking.  He usually kicks right before I start to feel hungry, letting me know that it's time to feed him.

That's why I wonder if he can smell at this point.

Is it still safe to fly at this point? Perhaps not.... 

What a mature and sensitive kid

We suddenly missed chloe very much these days.  I remember when ming and i were there this past summer: one afternoon ming was so tired (I guess he played basketball that early morning) so he wanted to nap.  He was playing with chloe but then he felt so tired that he just went to sleep.  Chloe went and grab a little chair/stool to use so she could reach a cd player on top of her tall dresser.  I asked her "What are you doing?" She replied "I am putting on lullaby for uncle ming."

She cracked me up.  So ming slept peacefully in lullaby music that afternoon.  :D

Another depressing entry

I guess things have been crazy at the hospital.  Being in the clinic, although busy, i sometimes don't really know what is going on in the "outside world."  Lots of "pandemic plans" have been talked about.  One of them is the possibility of deploying staff to assist in the chaos in ER and on the wards.  Being 24 weeks pregnant, and working in a hospital is a difficult situations.  I was never afraid of helping out, i always wanted to be in the action or feel like i am contributing to the team.  But now... i still feel that way, only i have to step back and think for my unborn child.  It is such a hard situation to be in, having two kinds of feelings... It is something that only a woman will experience i guess: you cannot have it all, it's either your family or your career.  You gotta choose one.  Where I am standing right now, i gotta choose my family... And that makes me feel guilty and useless.  I don't want to be viewed as the prego women who had the easy way during this whole crisis.  I need to tough it out, so miki, just hang in there with me.

Sad thoughts

Went to high tea with co-workers today at King Edwards Hotel.  Close to the end of our meal, an older gentleman came in to have high tea on his own.  The waitress said hi to him and addressed him by his name; looked like a regular there.  But then i was thinking, why is he all by himself?  When i see this kinda thing, it always makes me think about perhaps he is there to revisit some old memories, maybe him and his wife were regular customers there and now that his wife is no longer there, he likes to go there to remember his wife.  That makes me so sad...

The other day ming and i were at MacDonald having dinner, then this older gentleman came in, ordered one McChicken Junior and a small fries.  I said to ming, maybe his wife passed away and he doesn't know how to cook so he has to come in to eat MacDonald.  Plus, because they did not save up when they were younger, so he has to order the cheapest items on the menu.  That also makes me sad...

I am afraid of aging.  Thinking about getting old is sad.  Thinking about old people makes me sad.  That's why I wanted to work with kids and not seniors.