maybe this is the way for ming to lose some weight

So ming and i had a bet: he said he would finish painting the "baby room" within 5 days after he goes on x'mas vacation or he will never have a sip of beer ever again.  After deducting days that we needed to do errands, such as decor meeting, lunch/dinner with friends, we've come up with the date December 26th.  Good luck ming~

pregnancy thoughts

My prego belly looks very different from all the prego women that i've seen.  I feel like i am carrying a 輪胎 around my waist, but i think that's coz K (short for Caleb) is lying side ways.  i think he's gonna be tall, coz my "tire" is really wide.

When i found out that i was pregnant, i told myself that i was only going to gain 22lbs.  Well, i'm there already, damn it.  Don't even know how that happened.

We bought our car seat today (it was on sale); also bought some silicone baby bottles that are made in Taiwan, cool eh?!  Well, they were on sale and they were pretty. :P

Thank you, to the guy lining up behind me

I did something sort of embarrassing tonight....

I remember two years ago, on our Jack+Ming wedding bus tour to Kingston, we stopped at Wendy's for lunch.  Nica had ordered potatoes with chives and sour cream while everyone got fries.  That was the first time that i knew that Wendy's had such thing.  Last night, I had to get my own dinner and i didn't want to drive far or wait a long time for it, and instead of going to MacDonald, which we always go, i decided to go to Wendy's.  It's not that far from our home anyways.  So I thought about the potatoes, and I ordered it.  I absolutely loved it... I peeled off every single part of that potatoes to get the last bit of it.

Tonight, i needed to get dinner again for myself, so i decided to go back again.  I ordered the exact same thing, delux cheeseburger and the potatoes with chives and sour cream.  But then after the cashier took my money, gave me my burger, she told me "we don't have potatoes anymore."  I almost wanted to kill her.... I told her, "I came here for the potatoes!!!" She smiled and said nothing.  I said "if you had told me that you didn't have it, i would have just left!"  Then the manager came, i told her what happened, so she gave me a rain cheque for the potatoes.  I told her "i'm sorry, but i'm pregnant" and she said she understands.

The father ordering behind me told me "it was February, my wife was pregnant and she wanted watermelon.  We drove around town looking for watermelon, found it and bought it even though it was $15.  So i understand where you're coming from, and i sympathize you."

THANK YOU SIR!!! Thank you for not making me feel bad for holding up the line and asking for a potato.  Thank you.  You're a good man for driving around town paying $15 for watermelon for your pregnant wife.  There is still good people in this world.

Can this baby

in my tummy smell anything right now?

I had bought something to eat for dinner this afternoon, I thought I wasn't hungry, until I started driving away and smelled the food~~

Then the baby started kicking.  He usually kicks right before I start to feel hungry, letting me know that it's time to feed him.

That's why I wonder if he can smell at this point.

Is it still safe to fly at this point? Perhaps not.... 

What a mature and sensitive kid

We suddenly missed chloe very much these days.  I remember when ming and i were there this past summer: one afternoon ming was so tired (I guess he played basketball that early morning) so he wanted to nap.  He was playing with chloe but then he felt so tired that he just went to sleep.  Chloe went and grab a little chair/stool to use so she could reach a cd player on top of her tall dresser.  I asked her "What are you doing?" She replied "I am putting on lullaby for uncle ming."

She cracked me up.  So ming slept peacefully in lullaby music that afternoon.  :D

Another depressing entry

I guess things have been crazy at the hospital.  Being in the clinic, although busy, i sometimes don't really know what is going on in the "outside world."  Lots of "pandemic plans" have been talked about.  One of them is the possibility of deploying staff to assist in the chaos in ER and on the wards.  Being 24 weeks pregnant, and working in a hospital is a difficult situations.  I was never afraid of helping out, i always wanted to be in the action or feel like i am contributing to the team.  But now... i still feel that way, only i have to step back and think for my unborn child.  It is such a hard situation to be in, having two kinds of feelings... It is something that only a woman will experience i guess: you cannot have it all, it's either your family or your career.  You gotta choose one.  Where I am standing right now, i gotta choose my family... And that makes me feel guilty and useless.  I don't want to be viewed as the prego women who had the easy way during this whole crisis.  I need to tough it out, so miki, just hang in there with me.

Sad thoughts

Went to high tea with co-workers today at King Edwards Hotel.  Close to the end of our meal, an older gentleman came in to have high tea on his own.  The waitress said hi to him and addressed him by his name; looked like a regular there.  But then i was thinking, why is he all by himself?  When i see this kinda thing, it always makes me think about perhaps he is there to revisit some old memories, maybe him and his wife were regular customers there and now that his wife is no longer there, he likes to go there to remember his wife.  That makes me so sad...

The other day ming and i were at MacDonald having dinner, then this older gentleman came in, ordered one McChicken Junior and a small fries.  I said to ming, maybe his wife passed away and he doesn't know how to cook so he has to come in to eat MacDonald.  Plus, because they did not save up when they were younger, so he has to order the cheapest items on the menu.  That also makes me sad...

I am afraid of aging.  Thinking about getting old is sad.  Thinking about old people makes me sad.  That's why I wanted to work with kids and not seniors.  

Give me my vaccine

This whole H1N1 vaccine biz is driving everyone insane in this country!

Ever since its roll out, the news has been non-stop.  Who's getting it first, people shouldn't get it first is getting it, people lining up for over 8 hours in the cold to get it, blah blah blah...

I myself was concerned about it, simply because I am in the higher risk population group, but I thought the public shouldn't get so overly antsy about getting the vaccine.  Until this morning I heard about this 13 y.o. healthy hockey player boy who died from it...  That is such tragedy.  

As a health care worker, i don't know what to think, should i feel lucky that i get to have the vaccine first? or should i be worried about getting the flu while working?

As a pregnant health care worker, i am super worried.  BUT i still cannot get the vaccine! coz the one for women under 20 weeks of pregnancy is not yet available.  Like i said, the general public should not panic and just wait for their turn to get the vaccine, and therefore i shouldn't be too anxious either.  BUT after what happened at work last week, i am more eager than anyone to get the vaccine.  We had a girl who came to our clinic, had high fever, developed a seizure, we had to call a code, and i was involved with the code.  The girl had high fever and coughs, and so did her sister the next day.  Even though i wasn't too close to her at all times, but i was pretty close to her... i was crossing my fingers over the weekend that i don't develop any flu like symptoms, which i didn't thank god.  But i cannot let this kinda thing happen to me again.  i need to be more self conscious now, considering i am now responsible for another human being.  So will Health Canada/Sickkids act quicker and get my vaccine here ASAP please?!!!

狡猾的大統華

上禮拜去大統華看到有賣芭樂， 上面寫：“臺灣芭樂”，看了好高興，就給他買了。 回到家，吃了後覺得不是很好吃， 把子切掉後，整個沒剩什麼肉。 昨天吃了第二個，才發現這個上面貼了個 "Product of USA" 而且還是 “Thailand Guava”。。。 氣死我了。。。 大統華好爛，故意把那貼紙隱藏起來， 騙消費者。 Gay Westin should look into what kinda company he just took over.

Heartburn kills...

Baby kicking so much!!!

Body so tired...

Not sleeping at night~~~

Miki you better be a good boy when you come out.

I want to eat here!!!!

Miki's real name

still have not reached a conclusion as to what we are going to name our baby.

so let me know what you think:

1. Noah

2. Matthew

3. Ryan

4. Others

"Boy boy boy" yelled by Chloe and pointed at my belly

Seeing the little thing moving around on the screen of the US machine still feels kinda surreal.  I saw his heart, his brain, his hands and feet, and his whole spine! I asked if we could find out the sex that day, the tech was very willing and went to get ming to come into the room.  First she showed us all his parts and how his heart was pumping, saw the little valves too! Then she asked "you want to know the sex, right?!" I said, "yes," but then ming asked "are you sure?" I yelled " of course!" Then she showed us his little (but obvious) "boyhood,"  in three different angles! So I think there is very little chance that it will turn out the other way.  Do babies pee when they are in their mommy's tummy? No, right?!  

It is so weird having a boy inside of me, I am a female, what do I know about taking care of a boy? I've always told myself and ming that I am only gonna have one kid, coz I don't want to go through pregnancy again, coz it's just plain hell.  But now that this one is a boy, I think I will want a girl... I have to have a girl.

After knowing that it's a boy, I feel like he's much stronger (compare to if I was having a girl), I can eat whatever I want, or take less vitamins, basically be more reckless... :P  But ming (very) strongly advised me not to eat "sashimi." 

Then I went baby cloth shopping.  Like I said, I am the planning type, I like to be prepared.  I think being in nursing has made me the way I am now.  If I didn't plan what I needed to do ahead of time, I would never get out of work on-time (or at least somewhat on-time).  When I was doing my master's degree, I would have my paper finished at least 4-5 days ahead of the due date, so ming could proof read it.  That's me, I like to plan ahead.  Plus, ming and I are going to be extremely poor starting NOW, coz we just got possession of our condo, and we need to pay a great amount of down payment for our new home that's gonna be ready next June.  If I don't spend/buy stuff now, we will never be able to buy later, coz there will be no money left in my bank account.... 

One thing I discovered that is baby boy clothes are not as cute as baby girl clothes!!!  Ahy.... It's either blue or green or brown... not much variety.  I miss buying clothes for my nieces, so fun, so much selections!  Ming got this little onesie that has a bunch of skulls print on it (he said it's One Piece) and it wasn't even on sale.  God help me...

I just want this baby to be born healthy and strong, now that I feel his kicks and movements, I am much relieved.  But if he doesn't kick, I feel anxious, wondering what he's doing, or if there's something wrong.  I rather have this baby out sooner than later, coz I can't bear the mysterious feeling.

奇怪，上一次他的頭在右邊，怎麼這次在左邊哩？

From first knowing that I was prego to now knowing the sex of the baby, it is such as an interesting experience.   First I cried when I found out I was pregnant, and now when I found out about the sex, I cried too.  I guess it's the hormone doing the trick.  

The feeling of guilt. It's not all about me anymore

I felt sick yesterday.  I vomited while i was on the train yesterday morning; good thing i had a plastic bag with me at that time and the lady sitting beside me was sleeping.  So my stomach was not feeling well for the whole day, therefore i didn't eat much. But when i felt the baby moving in my tummy, i thought it was her protest of "feed me!" But I just didn't want to eat: i felt like i was starving the baby.... Before being pregnant, if i didn't want to eat due to not feeling well or simply being lazy, then i just didn't eat! Now things are different.  I am responsible for two now... I don't think i am grown up enough to handle this... Now i have to put another person in front of myself... time to be not selfish anymore.

can't wait till next tuesday to find out!!!

the jackpot is currently sitting at $45 now.  

minimum $5/play.

well, so i'm starting a pool~ boy or girl?

I say girl!!!

so if you put your bet down on girl, you will split the prize with me! the $30 prize

so far no one bet on girls.... how come? so weird...

bingeing on watermelon these days, i'm so scared that when winter comes, there won't be any more watermelons.  it's been my life saver for the past 2 months!

house hunting is a pain. getting rejected is even more a pain...

came across this photo again today... almost everyone in this photo already has a baby of their own... it's so good to revisit the old times. :)

never have i wanted to have subway so badly in my life, but now i cannot have it!!!

what a torture.

so i ordered a veggies sub... still good, but not the best.

Emma 抓周 （是這個周吧)

She is going to be a famous tennis player!

She loves balloons and stuffed animals, a typical girly girl! 

不知道誰買的娃娃這麼可愛。

Emma has so many people who love her!!! What a lucky girl.

到現在還不知道ultrasound檢查結果。。。 真是讓人擔心。。。

今天早上又吐了， 不過我已經很幸運了， 目前為止只吐3次。 不過天天24小時都覺得想吐真的是個要人命的感覺。。。 ahy, 蛋黃酥， you better be worth it...

Ming: Jack, 妳是熟女eh。。。

Jack: 那你是爛男。。。

meet 小蛋黃酥

Whoever that will read this blog should already know this....

because 蛋黃酥's dad broke my scanner, so this is actually a picture of a picture. 

A boy or girl?  Just hope she/he is healthy.  - Anxiously waiting for report of this ultrasound.

mad as hell

Will people remember any of these when the next election comes up? Why do we have such a useless, coward, non-empathetic, and arrogant president? Of course, none of these was his fault.... it's everyone else's fault.... he was just having 喜酒。

http://www.libertytimes.com.tw/2009/new/aug/17/today-fo1.htm

馬說負全責 卻是要懲處官員

〔記者王寓中、黃良傑、李欣芳、編譯魏國金／綜合報導〕馬英九總統昨接受美國有線電視新聞網（ＣＮＮ）專訪，對如何回應民眾指責馬和政府救災行動太慢，緩不濟急，馬說，他當然會負起全部責任，但負責的方式是「懲處官員」，而且也拒絕下台；馬不但再度指責災民不願撤離家園、將救援不力歸咎天候、豪雨影響，還自豪後來一天內救出二千五百多人是一項「紀錄」。

馬英九拒絕下台 將責任歸咎於天候

莫拉克風災過去一個星期，面對災區救災、安置、復舊問題一籮筐，政府救災不力引發的民怨如潰堤般宣洩而來，馬總統連日下鄉勘災，卻還一再要講「道理」，除了昨天在災區臨時接受ＣＮＮ 專訪，馬週二還要舉行國內媒體記者會，會後並再加開一場國際媒體記者會，就是要一次說清楚。

民進黨文宣部主任鄭文燦將砲口指向馬英九救災不力卻推卸責任，他說，馬英九接受ＣＮＮ的訪問說自己要負全責，但實際上對這次水災怪天怪地怪官員，把責任推給下屬，這顯示馬英九缺乏反省，整個救災的問題，「馬英九及閣揆劉兆玄要負起最大的責任！」

ＣＮＮ記者問馬英九如何面對救災不力的負面評價，馬英九說「他是中華民國的總統，會負起全責」。ＣＮＮ記者追問，「所謂負起全責，是什麼意思？」馬回說，他會徹底調查政府的救災系統、救難行動，是否出了什麼狀況，「不只是要改正錯誤，也要懲處該負責的官員」。

自豪一天救二千五百多人是項紀錄

面對風災發生後黃金七十二小時救災行動的延誤批評，馬強調，前幾天的救援行動緩慢、過去三天能夠做這麼多，都是因為天候的關係，因為先前雨下得太大，直升機無法起飛，馬還指八月十五日從受困災區中救出二千五百一十八人，「那是個紀錄啊！」

馬又說，過去一個星期以來，從山區裡疏散了七千七百多名受困居民，全部都是以直升機運送出來，「這是台灣史上最大的直升機空運行動」。

馬指出，目前救災已深入許多無法接觸到的地區，但還有一萬一千多位當地居民堅持要留下來，不願撤離，他認為要訓練人民未來面對可能發生災害時，要提早撤離的觀念。

馬表示，在這次莫拉克颱風中，在台灣其他地方，確實有成功撤離的案例，某些鄉鎮市長，他們有受過訓練，情況危急時，他們一個一個去敲每家的門，撤離災民，他們確實做到了，馬還自豪地說，這是「首次動員這麼快」。

對於外界一再將八八水災救難行動，拿來和十年前的九二一地震救難相比，馬也辯稱，水災跟地震不同，天候扮演很重要的因素，因為地震五分鐘就過去了，一切回復平靜；但颱風過後，雨還繼續下了一個星期，救災行動上，水災比地震困難許多。不過經查九二一地震發生時也曾經連續下雨，並非馬所謂的震五分鐘就過去了。

Happy 2 year Anniversary to my dear hubbie.

Your care for me in the past two months was the greatest gift.

I really love to travel... travel around the world.

Tonight I wanted to see our trip to Amsterdam again, and when I saw this photo:

i thought "hey, what's that on ming's hand? it's that delicious Dutch bread that tasted just like Taiwanese 雞蛋糕!!!" 

Ahy.... I miss Europe so much~

Loving this hot summer heat, bring it on!!!

Wish summer never leaves...

Last night I was trying to do some sit-ups, something that I haven't done in years.
Ming: "沒用啦"
What's that supposed to mean?
$%&*$$@!*%($#@#$^&

A rainy day in T.O.

This is my beautiful niece #3!!!

How cute is she?!!!

No luck

I've had enough of this

Starting tomorrow, I officially quit cooking.
If I have to work, cook, AND do dishes, I quit!

肚子痛了兩個禮拜， 今天終於決定來煮個稀飯來吃， 也買了麵筋和醬瓜， 可是偏偏要吃的時候卻打不開罐頭。。。 god damn it....

Since ming and I are starting to have a more steady income (我終於長大了), we have decided to try to put our money into good use, instead of buying useless junk to fill up this big house.  With ming's parents help, we are in the process of looking for a property investment.  We thought that the housing market is in a slump right now, condos should be a good place to invest since we do not have lots of money to spare. Boy were we wrong.... The condos are still on a rise, and we already tried to put in two offers that both got shut down.  Now we have to keep looking... I hate house hunting, it's time consuming and tiring....  wish us luck.

Bitch and good man

I am telling two stories here.

First: Today after my train ride, I got into ming's 4Runner at the parking lot, this fat bitch who parked beside me got into her car after me.  Then I heard a bump... first I was like, what was that, I know it came from the passenger side's door, so I know it was her who bumped her door into my door.  I looked at her, she had no remorse whatsoever, so i mouthed to her "you hit my car!" And guess what she did, she gave me the look and mouthed something like "So what? what's the big deal!" and drove away!!! What a BITCH! It wasn't like I was gonna sue her or anything, at least apologize and say oh, it didn't leave a mark (I went down to take a look, there was a scratch but I think it is removable).  She was so fat that she couldn't get into the car and needed a bigger space to get into her car.  Therefore she should have 1. not drive, walk home or 2. wait till I left and get into her car or 3. be more careful!!! Why are there such insensitive, impolite people in this world?! I memorized her orange ?mazda license plate number just in case BEHM556- don't let me see you at the station another day, I will definitely kick your fat ass.

Second, the good man story: Our garbage pick up professionals are very good people.  They have on several occasions helped us a lot.  They answer our (more like chatty ming's) questions, and they would always (well, most of them are good) stack our recycling bins and green bin together afterwards.  This morning it was a nasty scene at the front lawn as I was leaving the house for work.  The raccoons had gotten the green bin; they pushed it down and managed to unlock the green bin.  They digged into the food waste and made a nasty gross crime scene.  When I got home, (while still being so mad about that fat BITCH) I was thinking: now I have to go home to clean up the mess, but surprisingly the spot where the mess was had been cleaned up! That means the garbage man picked up the broken bag with all the food leaking out!  I am so grateful.  Perhaps I should write the waste management people a nice letter telling them what a good job they've done.

I am browsing through the A&F website and I notice something really bizarre. 

What's the use of a coat that has a hoodie, but sleeveless?  

Fashion, fashion... something I will never get.

So I am sick... 

What's been happening in my life? Nothing worth blogging about.

Went to a lunch date with the girls.

Played a little bit with Emma at her house.

Been spending a lot of money on clothes.

Oh yeah, I am now a permanent part time paediatric dermatology nurse.

I am liking the part time part, but not the permanent part, coz that's almost like a pay cut for me.

Anyways, still missing home and family....

為甚麼人長大了後就有好多煩惱，每天都有新煩惱，永遠煩不完。。。

真希望能回到像當個五歲的小孩，無憂無愁的。

不過我五歲的時候好像很擔心媽媽會生氣，不然就是肚子為甚麼會痛。

所以其實每個人都有每個人的煩惱的。

Seattle Trip March 2009

Go view my new photos in my msn space.  

It took me a long time to upload these photos onto the space, because msn space is so NOT user friendly.

SF trip

Just came back from SanFran.   A nice city to revisit, I mostly spent my days in downtown area. The city was crowed though, with 3 conferences going on at the same time, the dermatology nurses association convention, the american academy of dermatology conference, and the pharmaceutical companies convention.    A taxi driver informed us that his business is only going well during this week, otherwise he doesn't think his company is going to survive by the end of this year.  He said the economy is really affecting the city, coz it is a city based on tourism.  Ahy.... I could feel the pressure of the recession as well.  Things are in general more expensive, compare to before, compare to Canada.

I ate this cream puff at a westfield mall by myself.  I finished in less than 5 min.  It was good!

Of course a US trip would not be complete without a drink from Jamba Juice.  Didn't see any pinkberry though.

Heard the inspirational speech by Greg Mortenson.  He is a nurse, now a famous writer.  The author of Three Cups of Tea.  I may read it in the future. :)

I've uploaded some more photos in my MSN page. Don't feel like using facebook anymore.

男人啊平常不喜歡看醫生，可是生起病來又很嚴重。

發燒到熱水壺裡沒水還把它插插頭，燒到水壺裡面都分解了。。。 became ashes!!

好吧現在沒熱水暍了.

今天早上聽到鳥叫聲，心想是不是春天要到了？

還是我太晚起床了？

結果今天超冷的。。。

還好我開車，呵呵。

想吃水餃。。。

still loving my furry boots.

still loving 小天.

I am in love again~~~

even ming loves him too~~~

Jan Update

This was ming and I's good find this weekend.  Good thing happen to those who wait... :D
Emma 4month old "shu nua" photo.  Look at all those donuts. Yum...It was Caro and Mark's Birthday. Happy birthday guys.

Congratulations to my sister Lotus, she just gave birth to a healthy 7lber babe!!!

I can't wait to see them, meet my 3rd niece, Elise...

A quick update

You mean you don't enjoy seeing jay every time you come onto my blog, my fellow YaYa fairy tale readers?  Coz I do.... Hahaha... So how do i sum up what's happened in the past few weeks?  Basically I was working, but did manage to have a few days off in between the holidays.  We had a x'mas dinner over at our place.  Ming baked a turkey (with my assistance) and it turned out perfect.  It tasted very good too.  Everyone brought a dish, and everyone's dish was so good as well that we finished all the food!!!

We did gift exchange at the end with stealing involved.  It was a fun night.  

Then we went to Ottawa.  The night we got to Ottawa, there was freezing rain.  Holy, it was so difficult to walk around town, rainy and icy, wet and cold... not so fun.  But the dinner was good, we went to this local fish market restaurant, the lobster was 1/2 price.  I don't think i've ever had such big lobster all to myself.  Well, of course i shared it with  ming.

I worked 3 days in a row on the ward during the new years.  I had the weekend off before I went back to work today.

In between all these, i did a lot of shopping that put a big dent on my bank account.  Ouch~ I cannot look at the damage of my credit card... I need my pay cheque right now.

Gosh I love Jay

The concert was good.  90% good i would say, not perfect, coz he didn't sing the songs that i like the most.  But Jay's concert was definitely a lot better than David Tao's.  Well, David Tao sang all the classic popular songs of his, which was great, but he didn't do any of the fancy stuff that Jay did, like having customs, having special guests appearance, or background movie clips.

I couldn't believe that the concert was sold out!!!  lots of a-6 though.... anyways, it was an awesome experience.  

Life is hectic, but Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Started a new job, finished another job yesterday; life is insanely busy.  

I am now an official GO transit/TTC commuter.  Will be taking the public transit almost everyday now.  Absolutely hate it.  But I guess it's better than waking up at 5:30 (even though I wake up at 6:00 now, not much difference), and driving home in rush hour traffic.

I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do.  That's what happens when one starts a new job.  It was a big step for me to change; change is hard.  It's hard when I really liked my previous job (except the hours).  This new job could be temporarily, it could be long-term.  Who knows.  Nevertheless, I am learning something new; like what daddy said "it's good, it's a learning new experience."  You are right, daddy.  Happy Birthday!!  Miss ya.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST DAD IN THE WORLD!!!

My Daddy, Dr. Su.

Happy Birthday Chloe & Anabelle

Life is crazy...

so crazy that i forgot about my lovely nieces Chloe and Anabelle's birthdays!!!

I miss you guys so much...

Why do emails always arrive after I leave my computer?

Finally finished a crazy 3 month stretch of work.  I have learned that being a teacher is hard.  Perhaps I do not know a lot about adult education.  But i really enjoyed this experience.  I was fortunate to have a great bunch of students; they were dedicated and very hard working.  The 11 weeks flew by so quickly.  I don't know if i'll get the chance to do it again, but i wouldn't mind.

Another thing i learned was that my body is not built for full time work.  It really takes a lot out of me.  During the past 3 months, i felt like the me when i first started working, always tired, never feel rested.  On Saturday, i slept for 12 hours, trying to make up the sleep that i missed.  So right now i'm just going to chill.  No more work (also means no more $$).  What am i doing with my life?  The question surfaced again.  

It was Nathan's 1yr old birthday party.  

Time flies.... 

Photos are on my facebook.

每日一complaint

It is disheartening when you used to like someone, but later found out some things about that person, and totally changed your view towards that person.

If someone applies for a position that is supposed to be a supportive towards your colleagues, then why doesn't that person support?

Sometimes people get in the mode of thinking you are now the boss and feeling all high and mighty, and forget about your own place.  I hate hypocrites.... Absolutely hate it.

Stephanie is asking "what's the meaning of life?"  

I often wonder the same too.

What is the purpose of living?  What are we working so hard for?  

Last night I dreamed that Jay was my boyfriend (oops, ming's gonna kill me), but he cheated on me, and I was so sad...  I was telling a friend that what's the point of staying with one guy who has a history of cheating, and repeats it again?  Hahaha... Men are bad animals on this planet.

亂講一通。

自從家裡裝了衛星， 我以經看了好幾部電影。 發現其實我還滿愛看電影的。 但我只喜歡在家裡看， 不喜歡去電影院。 

昨天看了Sex and the City Movie，surprisingly 還滿感人的。。。 

之前還看了P.S. I Love You， 覺得那是近幾年來最感人的電影。 強力推薦。：）

Been busy at work lately as well.  I now realize the difficulty of ming's job.  Being a teacher is not easy.  Having patience is a must... Whether i have enough patience is yet to be determined.  But i really enjoy the challenges and see how the students are improving every day (well, at least most of them are).

Maybe because i've been working more, i'm always tired, sleep for a long time now.  Can't wait till X'mas now.  But i don't like x'mas, coz it makes me think about family and how i'm not around them.  So maybe i don't want x'mas to come.  X'mas also mean the end of a year, so i hate that feeling too.  That means another year has passed and i've still not accomplished anything.... Also means i'm getting old.  Boo x'mas, booo.....

沒人性~

Don't eat anything that's "Made in China"!!!  As simple as that....

If China does not care about their own citizens (including the vulnerable children and infants), it is their problem.  We as customers knowing how horribly China "inspects" their food products, should not be stupid and go buy things that are made in China.  Sure, their things may be cheaper, and why is that? Coz they add poisonous stuff in their food to drive the cost down... 不要逞一時之快, thinking you can save money now.  We will all end up paying more for it in the future.  I just cannot believe that the Chinese people are doing it again... Last time it was the animals (remember last time pet food in N. America killed a number of animals here) and this time it's the babies; and it is the same stupid thing that they used to put in pet food and infant formula.  How could they not have learned from it?  

If Taiwan ever joins China as a country, Taiwanese people will suffer from the same issues that the Chinese people are facing now.... By that time, I will not buy anything that is made in Taiwan either, coz I won't want my future children to get sick....

Hurting little babies just makes me so mad....  

Went to do hot yoga last night.  The purpose of doing exercise is to get fit and healthy.  However, after I got home, it was already very late, I cooked dinner, and I hate a big bowel of dinner.  And because I ate so late, i went to bed late and could not fall asleep coz i was too full.... 真是反效果.

So Jay is coming to Toronto.  I am definitely going.  Can't wait!!!

Went to see Jamie and Emma over the weekend.  Emma is a little yellow... keep drinking oh, Emma.  Jamie and Emma 加油.

It's a Virgo...Again!

Congratulations to my good friend Jamie.  Jamie and Vincent had their baby on September 8th at 1:55am.  Emma is very very very cute and healthy.  I am so happy for them.

For the whole day, I was looking up on this brand of knife.  I want to get them so bad...

image from williams-sonoma.

So today is the last day of ming's summer vacation.

So sad....

Baby News- it's a Virgo!

So our good friend Lance and Nica had their baby.  Aiden is his name.  

I am so proud of them, becoming young and loving parents.

Aiden is healthy, gorgeous, and just perfect.

Nica is strong and looks so calm.

Whereas Lance is kinda clueless (especially with the new perm), but very supportive towards his wife and very caring towards Aiden.

Congratulations to them both!!!!

I can't wait to meet Mr. Aiden Wei 

if you are interested in viewing jamie's baby shower photos, please go to http://www.flickr.com/photos/15597562@N03/sets/72157606974419810/

... continued from takko's comment....

I've been so busy with work and life this past few months, i've lost touch with blogging and facebook!  I used to be the loyal fan of people's blog and facebook that i would visit those sites more than twice a day!!!  Damn i miss those days- just sits in front of the computer and check out who's updated what.  Where have those days gone?!  And because i've lost contact with blogging and facebook, i don't even think about things that are worth blogging.  I used to think "oh, i can write an entry on this, another entry on that..." Well, not anymore!

If I have to think about what i want to write these days, it would be all the BS that i get from work.  For example, those snobbish, arrogant, disrespectful, useless doctors, or those useless, selfish, ass-kissing charge nurses.  This is what my mind has been filled with.  Of course there are also many many sad stories that i would rather just forget, or else i would not be able to work where i work now...  

And if i have to think about what fun i've had, it would be all the dinner, drinking, and poker parties that we've had.  I have discovered why alcohol can make one person high, and I now can drink one glass of wine without getting a headache.

So that's what's been happening with my life.  If ming were to blog about his past few months, it would probably be about the same as this, except he also did a lot of moving furnitures around in the house and that's all.  What a waste of summer, hahaha...

今天起來上班前有早餐吃（蛋餅歐），感覺真好。 一整天雖然只吃一餐早餐，但就很有精神。我說過當一個老公會早上起來煮早餐給老婆吃就代表他是愛她的  （or he has done something wrong, hahaha...)。

if you have time, go see the photos from our trip, Amsterdam-Brussels-London.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/15597562@N03/sets/72157606557291400

I heart europe~

Just got back from our trip to Amsterdam-Brussels-London.  What a great experience!  Amsterdam was such an interesting city, and I would go back again if I get the chance.  London was more like a revisit, since I was there about 6 years ago.  It is just awesome to see any cities in Europe.  They are so full of history and culture everywhere, something that N. America does not have.  The Dutch are such a relaxed population, they stroll when they walk, and they are always enjoying life.  London has some really handsome men.  I just love their subway system.  Almost wanted to buy a poster of their "underground tube" system.  The Europeans are very environmentally conscious, they do not have AC everywhere.  The days when we were there, it was so hot and what do N. Americans do when it gets hot?  Go hide in the malls or office buildings.  Well, that won't work in Europe, coz many stores do not have AC, or the ones that do, the AC is barely noticeable.  Globalization by the MacDonald's are the only restaurants that do have AC.  Of course, the americans cannot live in agony.  Ming would probably have an easier time in Taiwan than in Europe during hot days, coz at least there's AC everywhere in Taipei.  But Taipei is definitely still hotter than Europe.  What else can I say about European cities?  oh yeah, they are freaking expensive.  Anyways, I am going to upload the photos somewhere... Still haven't decided where to put up the photos.  Maybe Flickr?  

It is July 1st, 2008.  Honestly, where did the last year go?  Ming and i have been married for almost 1 year now.  I still can't believe it.

Ming is finally done with school, but then more school starts in 1 day.... why does he have to make himself so busy all the time?

But anyways, we are going on our honeymoon part II in the end of July.  It's costing us an arm and leg, we probably cannot afford it (in fact, ming will say that we cannot afford it), but when are we going to go if we don't go this year?  I am working more these days to make up the cost of living.  Basically, i am just making money to cover my own shopping expenses.  Aritzia has definitely put a big hole in my wallet.

I've had quite a few busy shifts in the past few weeks.  Some of them were quite rewarding though.  It is great when your work is being appreciated.  It makes a huge difference.  Sometimes rewards cannot just come from patients, families, but encouraging words from your co-workers can also make a big difference.  We have recently hired two charge nurses and they are excellent; i am so happy about that.  Having good charge nurses is getting harder and harder these days.

Went to a wedding this past weekend too.  It was 1 1/2 hr drive from Toronto.  I think once in a while it is fun to go to another city, it's like a road trip.  Too bad that when i took out my camera wanting to take photos during the wedding, i just realized that there was no memory card in it.  :S  So mad.

I hope this is going to be a productive month.  I will be working a lot again in the next two weeks.  And i hope ming and i get our tax done.  :P  It is July after all....

i want my mommy/daddy

so mommy and daddy just left for vancouver. they are going back to taiwan in 4 days.
i was so sad and teary when i dropped them off at the airport. so sad.... even though we get into fights when we are togther, but i still want to be around them.
it is nice to get pampered once in a while by your mommy. while my parents are here, we went to do some grocery shopping a few times. they kept on buying this and that, even though they were only staying here for a few days. my mom was getting all the meat and veges coz she wanted to cook for us. my dad was buying so much fruits, coz he wanted us to eat them. then they paid for everything. they would not let us pay for the groceries. i feel so bad, but i cannot argue with them. they are always so good to their children. i feel like i didn't really take them to a lot of places when they were here, and my mom was always cooking for us when she's at home. i miss them terribly already. can't wait to go back to taiwan....

it was thundering at 1400 today...

My heart is aching right now...

I just found out that a patient from my work has passed away.  I have known this patient ever since I started working at this hospital.  She was such a special girl who made a difference in may people's lives.

Now that she has grown wings and returned to God's arms.  I will always remember her.

六月了。。。 日子過的真快。夏天很害羞要來不來的。有兩天熱的跟舌麼一樣，結果再來的一個月都還是很冷。
work is still busy every time I go. i seldom get a break, not eating anything for the whole shift, or if I do, i eat at like 6pm. :S
i've been doing some searches for the trip that we plan to go in July. everything is still up in the air. coz we are really not in any financial situation to go on a trip, but if we don't go, we will never go. plus, if we go later, then it doesn't count as honeymoon anyways.
i don't know why but i've been thinking about going to the Netherlands. ming wants to go to England, so we can probably go afterwards.
but i have to say, life is better now that my school is done. there is still some stress, but different kinds of stress. let's see if my acne improves now~ haha...

前天去Ｔ﹠Ｔ買了一包米。價錢旁邊還擺了一個牌子說一人只能買兩包米 好像跟現在缺食糧有關。結果回到家的時候當銘把米抬起來的時，整包米的袋子破掉，７／８（according to ming) 全部撒到車裡和地上。 我們花了好久的時間把米scoop起來，今天我花了更久把米很仔細的filter過。Ahy... 真是的，浪廢時間。

ＰＳ．天氣為什麼還這麼冷?

無題

Trying to get out of the depressed mode.  So i've been thinking about where to go for honeymoon part II. I don't know why, i've always wanted to go back to Holland. Don't know anything about the country, and i went when i was very young, so i want to see it again.

I've been busy lately.  Worked quite a few days, and went to hot yoga twice with some friends.  I think i go more for the company than going to exercise.  But if it can get me to exercise, and socialize at the same time, then i think it's a good thing.

The long weekend is coming up.  Ming and i don't really have any plans.  So some friends have proposed going to the niagara for wine tasting.  Again, i will go for the company, not because i like wine.  anyways, looking forward to it loh.

Ming went to see the doc today.  He may have carpal tunnel (don't even know how to spell it).  ahy.... we are getting old.

今天好down....

我有時候會想, 如果我今天在台灣工作, 我會不會比叫成功? 我是否還是會像現在一樣懶而且只是作個平凡的工作? 常常把英文當做我的藉口 "因為我英文永遠不會比別人好, 所以我永遠不會做的比別人高" ... 還是我的事業心真的沒有那麼強... 當我在這碰到困難時就好想回台灣, 總覺得如果在台灣就不會出生這種事了. 我一直很相信一個人在事業上成不成功和他的人際關係很有關聯. 我覺得我的人際關係一直都很好, 直到我到了加拿大後... 不信你問問我在這的"台灣"朋友, 就可以知道其實我不是個那麼木訥, 不懂得交際的人. 噯... 說這些又有什麼用呢?

we've been, or should i say "i" have been thinking about moving.  why? 

well, why not?!

there is probably more "why" than "why not" in moving.

this is how i put it to ming "it's like our current tv.  there's nothing wrong with it, we just like to have one that's nicer.  newer, slimmer, more expensive though.  just like a new house."

這幾天有種很孤獨的感覺，不知道為什麼，很突然的。 感覺這世上只有我和ming。 God大概想叫我好好珍惜彼此吧。 是不是結了婚的人都會有這種想法？ 覺的好像除了我們倆個以外沒有人可以靠了。 或許這是種好事，因為如果每個結婚的couple都這麼想就不會離婚了.... maybe not.

我是不是念完書後開始想些有的沒有的？not good...

who wants to vacation with me?

today we received 2 red bombs... and i thought i have no friends.  :P

i have been looking for job postings lately.  it kinda freaks me out.  just thinking about going for interviews makes my palms sweat.  the truth is, i don't really want to get a new job.  i like my current job, i just don't like the nights and weekends.  and i actually enjoy staying home doing nothing.  don't know what ming would think though?  would a guy think of his wife as lazy if she just sits at home and do nothing?  not even cooking or housework?  i guess he would.... being married suddenly has some kinda "duty" or tasks that a wife needs to fulfill.  if i were single, nobody would care if i work once in a while and don't do any house chores.  ahy.... why the difference? is it just me? even if ming doesn't think this way, i would still feel like i need to do something, coz 人會講話嘛.

i've also been searching for vacation packages, coz i really want to go for a trip to the sunny locations.  when i told mel that i am going with friends, she said "poor ming."  yeah, i also think poor ming, coz he got to work and he always work very hard.  but what should i do? ming said "you can go, but i don't like it"  haha... well first i have to find people to go with!!!  

PS. i don't know why my blogger entry has become "single lined" which makes it really hard to read.

addicted to The Hills

so bad....

Now what?

So today was my official last day of class.  On my way to class, sitting on the GO train, i thought, this may be the last time i take the train!  Kinda sad because i have enjoyed my time taking GO trains and buses.  I don't miss the cold while waiting for them though.  Then after class, as usual i went to the union station to catch my bus back.  But i had to visit my favorite store one last time, coz i may not go there again, since it doesn't open on weekends.  It's a paper, stationary, gift store, and it is very elegant and classy.  Didn't buy anything though, coz god knows i've got too many stationaries and such.  On the bus back to markham, the driver was my favorite one.  I so wanted to give him a thank you card or something.  haha...  So now that school is almost over, i am starting to feel that "what to do next" again.  Kinda scary, and it makes me nervous....

I'm going to call it.  This year it's going to be SA Spurs vs. BO Celtics in the finals.  After that, i don't know....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NINI WEI!!!

to my friends- when jamie could still drink

Got these yummy goodies from mr. wei today. so happy. Thanks Nica! hahaha...











got some hotpot tofu









some delicate treats








and some pretty sweets

good luck to taiwan in the next 4 years.

Bush Congratulates Ma:
"I congratulate the people of Taiwan on the successful conclusion of their March 22 presidential election. Once again, Taiwan has demonstrated the strength and vitality of its democracy. I also congratulate Mr. Ma Ying-jeou on his victory. Taiwan is a beacon of democracy to Asia and the world. I am confident that the election and the democratic process it represents will advance Taiwan as a prosperous, secure, and well-governed society. It falls to Taiwan and Beijing to build the essential foundations for peace and stability by pursuing dialogue through all available means and refraining from unilateral steps that would alter the cross-Strait situation. I believe the election provides a fresh opportunity for both sides to reach out and engage one another in peacefully resolving their differences.The maintenance of peace and stability in the Taiwan Strait and the welfare of the people on Taiwan remain of profound importance to the United States. We will continue to maintain close unofficial ties with the people on Taiwan through the American Institute in Taiwan in accordance with our long standing one China policy, our three Joint Communiqués with the People's Republic of China, and the Taiwan Relations Act."
講的好好聽歐，一定不是他本人寫的.
And I agree with him with the ONE China policy. Yes, China is one, and Taiwan is another one. So there's no conflict there.
臺灣人民快點醒醒吧。Do you really want to be called "China" or "China's little pet" (AKA HK and possibly future Tibet) instead of Taiwan?
If it's all for the economic prosperity, and we bow down to the ruling of China, doesn't that make us 現實的人?
But maybe I cannot say anything about that, because there's probably lots of ppl in taiwan who suffer from poverty and really wish for a better economy or a better life.
我不是在選黨，我是在選一個理念。如國今天馬可以把臺灣經濟搞好，只要不出買臺灣，不管誰當總統我都沒差。Just don't give me the BS that confuses people of taiwan. state what he wants to do. if he says what he truly believes, then he's probably not the winner today. He will sell out, let's just wait and see. And PLEASE, stop all the naked outtings, ok!!!
you can disagree with me if you want, but i think 公投has totally lost its meaning, it has become a political tactic for the two parties. i thought it was totally pointless asking this kinda question when people only know who they want to vote for and not really what they want for taiwan. so might as well stop doing it in the future. taiwan is not ready for this kinda democratic gesture.

apple is propaganda

whatever song that makes it to become an apple commercial song seems to become big later on.
for example, Feist's 1234, and now Yael Naim's new soul.
the apple commercial song that was playing constantly at the fashion mall in LV still rings in my ear from time to time.
and when i said constantly, i mean "constantly." the whole time we were in LV, we probably passed by it dozen of times, coz it's right across from our hotel and we would go there to shop and eat. ahhh... good times. and outside the mall, there was this huge TV or a projection TV that was playing an itune or ipod commercial constantly! it never played anything else but that one commercial. kinda a surreal experience, coz every time i think of that mall, i think of that song.

I think I have officially become ridiculous ~

I've been playing the fluffbook these few days.
addicted to the fluffrace thing. it's something that a 宅女 would do!!!
it's like gambling!!!
and so far i've lost a lot of "mummies"
i shall never go gambling...
coz i can very easily lose all my money.

kicked ming's butt!

score was 250 vs 100 or something, wahahaha...
i love it when ming is off from school.

Hate seeing the dentist, or the endodontist!

Went to get some dental surgery done yesterday.
The whole procedure took less than 30 min.
The fee=$1500.
That makes this endodontist's hourly rate=$3000.

He just went in there and dig... holy ouchy...
When the anaesthetics were injected into my gums, my heart was beating at 200/minute and I thought I was gonna pass out.
My right cheek is swollen like I am holding a piece of egg in there.
But I guess it's understandable since I have 6 freaking stitches in there....!!!
And my pee smells like penicillin coz that's what I'm taking to prevent infections.

I think the year of 29 has started to do its tricks on me...

No money no mini

I "sort of" organized my closet again! and i realized something... I have too much clothes that I don't get to wear often, coz I don't go out often.
Conclusion: I need to go out more!

Went to check out new Mini's today. No money sucks.

those with kids or will have kids will appreciate help like this --

the GO bus driver was so cute today.
a passenger was travelling with a baby. he was by himself and carring a baby's stroller. before he got onto the bus he needed the driver's help to put the stroller in the under-compartment. when he arrived at his destination, he carried the baby down, and the bus driver went down as well to open the compartment and dragged the stroller out. when the dad was trying to work the stroller in order to open it, he was having difficulty doing it since he was carrying his baby in one hand. so the bus driver offered to carry the baby for the dad, which he did, he took the baby from the dad's hand and held the baby like he's very experienced. he must have kids himself too. the dad was very appreciative and smiling. it was such a cute scene. i laughed when i saw them,it was one of those "warm fuzzy" moments in life.

longing for the freedom

Things to do after i graduate
* Take down the x'mas tree!
* Watch Gilmore Girls DVD, all 7 seasons.
* Watch some Taiwanese/Japanese soap.
* Start yoga.
* Finish writing thank-you cards for the wedding.
* Print off wedding photos and give them out (no one is interested anymore).
* Clean out my closet, donate old clothes.
* Paint living room walls.
* Paint the powder room walls.
* Paint my nails.
* Re-organize the basement, chuck all the junk.
* Go on a trip.

What??!! there is a new entry on Pandablog?

Gang robs Zurich of top paintings


The four stolen masterpieces
An armed gang has stolen four paintings worth some $160m (£82m) by the great painters Cezanne, Degas, Van Gogh and Monet from a museum in Zurich.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/7238470.stm

I don't understand art thieves at all, what are they going to do with the paintings? keep them in their basement?
A black market? So what if you have these paintings? You can't show case them anyways...

Are the Suns making a big mistake?

Don't get me wrong, I like Shaq and I hate Marion.
But isn't Shaq a little too old and slow for the young and fast Suns (except Nash who isn't that young either, but he's still fast).
I mean, yeah, the lost to San Antonio without Parker was alarming (coz Parker is like the best), but is it worth panicking like this?
I feel for Marion though, he wanted to be traded, and then he got traded to the worst team in the NBA....
Anyways, go Raptors. What's up with Boston? they keep loosing now...
I predict that the Raptors will play Cleveland in the playoff and they will win the first round but lose in the 2nd round to Detroit.... totally made that up.

when i finish school, i am going to buy the gilmore girl dvd and have a gilmore girls marathon. ahy.... when i finish school.... so close yet so far...